things happened.

it happened. yeah, it did happen to me. i didn't cry. just a bit scared. scared to return home. scared of being scolded. i really could not believe that i didn't cry when it happened. things has got back to normal.

he settled it down. not me. that is what i hate bout myself. i couldn't even help him. i did nothing. nothing ! he came and never asked anything. he paid everything. i knew he was so angry but he never said anything about it. he respects me all this while but i didn't really care about him. this is what we call looser. yaa, imma looser.

i swear to God that it will always remain on my mind. the things that i will not forget in my entire life. never. 

it's haunting me. the flashback. it keeps playing on my mind. i faced it alone. with nobody else beside me. in a second, i could become an attention seeker. how pathetic i was. i really had no idea what i should do until his name popped out on my mind. 

he settled down everything. everything ! should i call myself a looser?

it's karma. what you give, you'll get back. and it's getting back to me. it would always haunt me. and the day. yaa, i will never forget the day. it was my horrible day ever. i just cried when i knew i had dragged him in trouble. i triggered everything but he was the one who handled all this.

nothing or no one could change what had happened. back to the reality. there's no use to regret now. like the title says 'things happened'. and everything for a reason. serious talk, there's no use to regret now. things already happened. i'm totally disappointed of myself. totally !

there's no word to describe my feelings but Allah knows everything what His servant feels.

move on.