big girls don't cry. be strong !

as-salam.

as you have read this post, i did say that this job is quite challenging kan. i know la some of you would say or think alahh setakat nak jaga anak orang, apalah sangat, kerja aku lagi penat. ok fine. you have your own job that you think it is more challenging than mine. and so, kau penat dengan kerja kau, aku penat dengan kerja aku. square!

andd as you have seen my posts for this month, only got 4 posts including this one rite. since i'm working here, my health becomes worsen. i've been coughing for 6 months. and after working here, my coughing becomes worst. and i easily get headache. is it normal? a day after that post, i fell sick. 

i got high fever actually. then starting from that, i became weak, weaker and weakest, day by day. i went to clinic twice in a week. the same clinic and i think that pharmacists already know me. i got 2 days MC. first on monday and the second one on wednesday. i worked on tues, but still, to handle 9 kids on your own when you are sick, really need a miracle to happen. i was hoping somebody could help me but i knew that they were also busy with their job. that was why i had to take another MC on the next day.

and what was making it worst, this kid is like a disaster to everyone [i use 'is' because he is still annoying until today]. no, look. if you're on my place, i dare to say that you would feel the same like me and all the staffs here. everywhere you go, he would follow. if don't, he would cry over and over again. budak lain tidur pun terganggu tau! always says 'nak ibu nak ibu. ibu, jangan tinggalkan saya. nak ayah nak ayah'. tension tau!

 

kalau comel takpe jugak. 

he was the reason why i took 2 days MC. dah lah degil, suruh tidur taknak tidur. tahan melalak. aku yang makin sakit.

every time i got back from work when i was sick, i would just lay on the bed. put the blanket on me. andd only use level 1 for my fan inside my room. still, i felt cold. to walk to the kitchen to get some food also i couldn't do it. only mum yang bawak makanan masuk bilik and let me eat on my bed. lepastu, dada rasa sesak. berat sangat dada ni. sometimes, i felt hard to breathe.

until one day, i got really a serious headache. and i cried. like a kid lost her puppet. mum and dad were so worried. they never saw me crying like that. it was really painful. memang tak tahan sakit. they even asked me to quit.

then i came to work with a pallid face and koyok bertampal dekat kepala. and because of that, i really have to be strong. until the end of this month. i know, every work got their own risks. the risks of being tired, being scolded by your boss, being banned  due to your bad attitudes, perhaps. any risk! just name it. 

p/s: have you read the newspaper today? 2 infants died sebab tercekik susu. two? i can't imagine how the parents feel.

p/p/s: every time thinking about work, it is really a nightmare to me. 

N.F.A